Dance into Love e-book

INTRODUCTION

by Eva

So far, every book I have written has demanded a very special tribute from me, as if I were bringing a deity to life that I first had to get to know and appease. While working on this book, suppressed memories from both this life and ancient times surfaced into my consciousness. Something wanted to be brought to light, and I could only surrender to it. With every book I wrote, I was allowed to go through deep inner processes that astonished me with their intensity. My first book, which I wrote from 2005 to 2007 about my opening to the spiritual world, triggered such profound transformations that I was repeatedly bedridden for weeks. My body underwent a comprehensive cleansing that literally brought me to collapse. The same happened with the other books on the soul level. When I focus on the topic, I am shown what step needs to be taken within me so that I can fully grasp what I am writing about. And this means uncovering and bringing to light all my shadow sides and repressed fears in connection with these themes. Ultimately, writing a book feels to me like being a sculptor, a musician, or a painter. The finished piece or sculpture is not yet recognizable in the raw material at the beginning. It is a creative process that, when you fully commit to it, brings exactly into being what serves the greater whole best. And it holds a multitude of surprises in store for you.

LILITH REVEALS HERSELF

You surely know the saying: “If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans!” This book was intended as a supplement and expansion to the first two books I wrote together with Christopher Amrhein, who has been researching and working with me as a musician and vibrational healer since 2010. Lilith was supposed to have only a small chapter in it. But I had made my calculations without her. She called me relentlessly and became more and more insistent. I, with my stubborn Aries Sun, am basically a rather defiant being who doesn’t like being told what to do and prefers to make my own decisions. I usually tend to initially close myself off to clear impulses and continue as I want. Often I am then more or less gently reminded that my ego path is not the right one at the moment, but sometimes that is not enough, and I need a much clearer sign—and occasionally even a kick in the backside…

WHEN LILITH CALLS

I suddenly wake up on a warm New Moon morning in May and hear a humming, deep feminine voice calling: “Give yourself space, take rest and a time out, for I have something to say.” A vibrating sound accompanies these words, familiar to me from far away. Images rise within me of wild, lush, overgrown nature. I can smell the forest floor, damp moss, and dry leaves. Memories of dark caves and dancing women’s circles accompany these clear images. I feel a deep connection to Mother Earth and hear faint calls from another dimension. Traces of past times weave together with an awakening future. Spaces behind the obvious open up. Lights that recognize me hurry toward me and dance around me. Astonished, I sit in bed at night and watch the images within me. In recent weeks, this gentle yet so clear voice has been reaching out to me incessantly in quiet moments or just before falling asleep. But as we all know, there is always so much else to do. Everything seems so much more important than listening to the inner voices. The obvious external reality demands attention vehemently, while the hidden inner spaces remain undiscovered. For weeks I have intended to write the chapter on Lilith. Her call is unmistakable, but in my busy existence she cannot truly reach me. The more urgent the voices become, the more excuses I find for why it just isn’t possible right now. You surely know this: There is so much distraction, things that need to be done, people seeking contact or needing help. Everything seems so much more important than returning home to your inner being. I clearly sense that I am meant to slow down. Yet I don’t want to admit it, even though the longing for space and time for myself already hurts physically. My strength and joy in acting outwardly have declined rapidly in recent days. Still, typical Aries that I am, I resist. I decide for myself when my active energy comes to a halt! At the same time, I feel that I am currently on the wrong path. But right then my grandchild arrived for homeschooling. There are still so many emails to answer, tidying up to do, cooking, and organizing. During the school break, I play with my grandchild in the garden. Christopher asks me casually: “Hey, tell me, Lilith and Chiron are both in Aries right now. What does that actually mean?” “Well…,” I say eagerly and diligently, “These cosmic constellations indicate that something completely new is being brought to Earth to reunite the feminine and masculine energies. An old cycle is ending and a new one beginning. It’s a good sign that they are both starting together in Aries.” For a brief moment, the image of a scale flashes before my inner eyes —balance, reconciliation, equality. I add: “Of course, first and foremost it’s about us, about balancing the masculine and feminine aspects within ourselves. ”Ten minutes later, while catching the hula hoop, I stumble backward over a small stone Aries ram standing in our garden. I fall onto my right hand and quickly realize that my wrist is broken. During the subsequent operation, I unexpectedly dive deep into long-repressed stories of torture from the times of the witch hunts. I hadn’t expected there to still be so much pain and rage. In the weeks that follow, I am occupied with processing this unexpected shock. All appointments are canceled. Yes, I feel more than just slowed down—in such a clear way—and it immediately becomes obvious to me: My masculine side, the active and hands-on part, has now been put out of service for quite a while.

IT IS TIME FOR BALANCE

For decades, I have worked as a medial astrologer and am repeatedly astonished by the pictorial expression of what is currently unfolding in my life. Time and again, I marvel at the cosmic lawfulness. Nothing happens by chance; there is always a deep, all-encompassing plan behind it. When I look at the horoscope for the moment of my fall and Lilith waves at me so unmistakably, I am almost more shocked by the clarity and unambiguity than by my broken hand. Lilith, the Black Moon, stands exactly on my Medium Coeli, which indicates vocation and public life. A clear sign that it is time to give Lilith a voice. Moreover, in the past weeks the Black Moon in my horoscope has transited over my Sun – my life purpose in this incarnation and over Mercury, the planet of communication and writing. On the day of the fall, Lilith stands exactly on my descending lunar node in a trine to Uranus. This means that old karmic stories are now being brought to the surface and liberated. How can this be, I asked myself in amazement, that I did not perceive what is truly important in my life? Why does the masculine and active take such a high priority in my life? Everywhere – especially in Western countries – I see people hurrying and doing, diminishing the value of the feminine, the tender. The masculine, active Yang part on Earth is held up as the only truth, while the delicate, feminine feeling, the Yin part within us, is increasingly suppressed. Physically too, I had neglected my left side, which stands for the feminine. Now I was allowed to learn to activate my weaker left hand and integrate it into my everyday life. That was my way of creating balance between masculine and feminine within me.